2 posts tagged “motherhood”

We call him "He Who Sleeps With Books"

James and his books

We call him "He Who Sleeps With His Blanket Over His Head"

Good thing there are holes in it!

My friend Kyle is always getting on to me because I constantly qualify things that I say just to be absolutely sure that I'm not misunderstood.

I'm really sick of smiling and saying how much I love motherhood because honestly sometimes it is really HARD! And when people say how cute my kids are, I really want to just respond with - "Do you want them?"

I am the mom that has to literally bite her tongue to keep from spewing profanity because her two year old just threw his crayons and coloring books on the floor (again!) and is screaming for mommy to pick them up for him.

I am the mom who sometimes has to just leave the room for a moment to regain my composure or I might just pitch my own little tantrum in front of my kids.

I am the mom who looks around at her abundantly messy house, piles of laundry, dirty floors and unpaid bills and wants to crawl back in bed and sleep it off. (and sometimes, if the kids are napping - I have!)

I am the mom who wonders who I used to be before I had children and wonders if I'll ever be that person again.

I am the mom who's really tired of always thinking of herself as "mom". I'm ready to explore my other roles (wife, friend, daughter) in greater depth and with more frequency.

See I'm already wanting to qualify all this by saying how much I love my kids, love my husband, love my house, etc. etc. BUT I know that if you know me, all that goes without saying (even though I guess I just said it - ugh, this is hard, Kyle)

Who knows why I feel so guilty sharing this? Possibly because I think I'm the only one who feels this way, but I know that can't be true.

Thank God that I'm meeting my friend Kristy for coffee tonight! I need some serious hang time with my friend! And thank God for my wonderful husband who's making that happen for me by watching our little angels. :)